Making the Commitment

In the evening of 6th January 2013, I went to Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation site and signed up. My heart definitely jumped into my throat, I was forking out money to make this happen. So it was an anxious moment.

During work the next day, I signed up for a 7 day free trial at my local gym. Stopped by after work to get my key and after dinner I went straight back in. I was only going to hang around for 30 mins.
I stayed for a little longer as I actually found it quite "nice".

When I went to sign in earlier, I saw someone pedaling away on a bike, so I thought Ill go with that as I always complained about how my feet hurt when I ran and my knees hurt (excuses!).
So, tried 15 mins on the bike, then jumped onto a treadmill. OMG my calves and shins were on fire! How have I gone through the last few years of my life and have lost the ability to walk at a decent walking pace without being in pain!
But I just kept telling myself "JFDI" (Just Focus and Do It.. or if you're being all bad ass on urself Just F****n Do It!)
15 mins past... bumped up the timer 2 more times... till I realised I told hubby I would be home by now.

The rest of that week, I would rush home from work and go to the gym for an hour from 4:30-5:30pm before picking up the boys.
Excuses started to pop in my head again. This time is inconvenient for the boys. The evenings are so rushed. I'm missing out on time with them. So Thursday after my workout I handed back my free trial and signed up for the year!

First Week I went to the gym 5 days :) And I was starting to feel guilty on the 2 days I didn't go.

Next Monday, I switched it up. The excuses were NOT going to conquer me. After all I used to get up at 3:40am to commute to Sydney, why can't I just wake up earlier and get the gym out of the way before everyone else woke up?
So for 2 weeks now Mon-Sat I have been getting to the gym by 5:30am.

I never thought of myself as ever running again. I always complained about aches in my arches. But I did have some decent shoes I never had used to their full potential (a purchase from an earlier fitness phase I didn't follow through on). So 3 weeks in and I have started jogging on and off on the treadmill now and I can feel my fitness is improving. I can't wait to see what the following weeks hold.

So where has all this blogging and wanting to express myself coming from? Well this weeks challenge in 12wbt was to say it out loud.
I am notorious for not following through on things I started. I give up to easily. So I thought, maybe because I haven't really made myself accountable for what I am doing. I like showing people what I can achieve. So last night (25th Jan 2013) I made a list of friends  on facebook that knew me over my years, who were non judgemental, who have inspired me, who have been there fore me, who have just known me and called them my 12wbt brag group. So when I want to share something about my weightloss, I can share my status straight to them. Quick and easy.

This is what I wrote:
"Sooo.. everyone I have selected to see this status... I am making a commitment to those selected. All of you I've crossed paths in different stages in life...
You have seen me at my fittest and at my frumpiest, seen me through school, my work life and through kids... and I will admit there is no surprise I have had issues with my weight all my life!

As some of you already know I have committed myself to tackle head on Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation and my task right now is to "Say it out Loud!"

So hear it goes!
My commitment is to lose 30kg in total!
Wow .. it's out there... very scary and surreal, but a big wake up call to what needs to be done!

Wish me luck!"

 I have no excuse to be able to accomplish this and I have made myself accountable. I haven't been so focused about anything... ever.

Since the 6th Jan, where I weighed myself and was disgusted with what I saw, I have changed how I eat and have maintained exercising. I am please to say as of 26th Jan 2013 I am now 89.7kg! I am below 90kg and am NEVER heading back. I can't wait to see what I can achieve doing 12wbt (starting Feb 2013).