How I Got Here

All my life I have been "bigger"than those my age. Maybe not overweight to begin with, but definitely some time during primary school. You kind of wonder how you get here.
I danced ballet (and jazz and tap on and off) from when I was 4 till I was 14(ish?). I played netball in primary school. I went to tennis training during highschool. Yet I became overweight.

Something I have noticed when my mom looks after my babies (well especially JellyBean). The amount of icecream, juice, chocolate, treats she sneaks into his diet. Yeah he's a skinny kid. But with such focus on kids nutrition it is such an eye opener.
I bring it up on occasion with mom, but she is like "Oh it's only every now and then, he eats lot of good food".
Maybe that is the issue. The idea treats are ok because they get heaps of other good stuff. But the more I think about it, JellyBean knows he gets chocolate and icecream and juice from his grandmother, so is it putting the idea I can eat all this yummy stuff on demand in his head so young? Anyhow that is another issue for another time. But something I have been having stern words with mother about.

So back to it. I was fairly active through school. Though I guess technology got in the way in the later years. The internet came to town, and gaming became interesting. I got my license and could just drive anywhere and look! Drive straight up to take away food! And to top it all off I started working at a fast food restaurant. This was probably the beginning of the next 20kg.

I ended up being a manager and spent 5 years surrounded by convenient food for breakfast lunch and dinner.

When I finally left that life, I ended in an office job and with already being used to the convenience of food, what better way to eat than to eat out!

Somewhere during that time I jumped on the WeightWatchers band wagon online. Once the support ended, so did my motivation. No one to send results to again. Meh why bother. Secondly, no one really knew I was doing it. So it was easy for me to give up. I never made myself accountable for what I was trying to achieve. I kept it to myself, so when I failed, no one would know.

So as I previously mentioned, 2 babies on I've run out of excuses. Late 2012 I blatantly said to myself, "eat what you want, food tastes awesome, its meant to be enjoyed".

I think I just almost hit rock bottom right there....
Rock bottom was seeing that 96.2kg and feeling disgusted with myself.